I had a revelation of sorts this morning while I was driving around DC trying to do two things at once. Perhaps Lot did too much when he walked all around Sodom and Gomorrah and that his only duty was to do his part and then leave to God the rest. Maybe, in his mind, he thought he was so special that he could prevent a prophecy from coming to fruition.
Man full of ego, perhaps his wife was likewise burdened with pretension which is why she looked back with regret thinking about the comforts she lost only to become bitter at life. I write these things in context to what I have been covering over the past couple of weeks. For those who don’t know, I have been writing of a potential terror attack—a belief spurned by a “safety and security” bulletin that was issued by DHS on Friday, September 17th—which compelled me to start a crisis chronicle that I have been updating on almost a daily basis to keep people who are in the dark informed.
Hello Americans, I want you to bear witness, @Jack & @Twitter execs actively censored this article published yesterday warning of earthquakes headed for #SanFrancisco & potentially #Seattle as well. Time for accountability! @RepMattGaetz #BrokenSparrow https://t.co/KBffaPwuoh
— Teodrose Fikremariam (@Teodrose_Fikre) October 8, 2021
I’ve always had a hero complex of sorts; when some see danger and run the other way, my first reaction is to head towards it in order to save others. I am not sure if this predisposition of mine is driven by nature of it was nurture that conditioned me to think of others at the cost of hurting myself. I am pretty sure it was the latter; my mother battled depression for most of her life and I spent most of my youth trying to make her smile only to witness more tears the more I tried to make her laugh.
Unable to “save” my mom, I decided to help everyone else. I don’t write this to be pious, in all honesty, my form of helping others is nothing more than enabling. To make things worse, I try to be there for others by neglecting myself. Yeshua told us to love our neighbors as we love ourselves, He never said to love others more than we love ourselves or to love ourselves more than we love others. Loving self more than others is clearly problematic, but many fail to see that loving others more than loving self is equally dubious.
I never realized how unhelpful it is to lower oneself in order to lift others until recently. To be honest, I did not even understand I was doing that until I found myself in the same cycle of self-neglect while I attempt to be a hero to friends and strangers alike. There are many who are reading this latest update and nodding along to every word because they too, you too, do exactly as I do as we equate validation seeking with benevolence.
This world is split into roughly two parts, the givers and the takers. As fate would have it, the extremes of both polarities draw each other and end up perpetuating the dance of egos that ends with heartbreak for both. In all honesty, it’s narcissism that is driving both parties into a ditch. Last night, I wrote about the dangers of ego and how humanity was splintered from their garden of serenity because the first grievance peddler catered to the pride of the First Gentleman and the First Lady only for both to end up on the outs.
The inability to let go of our egos will deliver us to evil as breaking waters will in time have us drowning in self-created sorrows. Whether the deluge will come by way of a tsunami that will take many or an accident that will claim one by one only God knows but eventually the end of days arrives for all. It’s the same ego that makes us worship the same politicians who are stepping on our throats as we pick the lesser of equal devils instead of turning to God. The same ego makes us value the words of billionaires who openly express their intention of reducing the global population (watch the 4:30 mark of this video) while we disavow messengers of peace who walk among us because they wear sweatpants instead of donning expensive suits.
Before you think I am speaking from the mount, let me point out the three fingers that is pointing back at me as I point out the foibles of humanity. I too am confounded by ego to the point that I don’t really trust God. If I did, I would not be anxious thinking that I have to save everyone from calamity when all I’m expected to do is pass the message on and then leave to God the rest. I’ve given out over 5,000 of these cards as I play the part of Lot only to run myself into the ground. My ego is the size of Texas and Alaska combined; that is the reason I dress down. In my attempt to not be elitist, I keep devaluing my worth only to get upset when people treat me as I treat myself. That same ego has me trying to predict God’s time when in reality only He knows when his time to return is right.
So today, instead of warning about impending doom or trying to save others through my words, I will simply say a prayer for all of us. God, I pray that you reveal to people who are being kept in the dark about the evils that are being formed to harm them. I pray for every man, woman and child throughout the world and that you cover them with your protective hands. If in fact the devil is to have his due, I pray that all who are willing and able to listen to your messengers have the time to do so and act. I pray for my birth land Ethiopia, as a new government is forming in Addis Abeba, I pray that you open people’s eyes to let them see that the prince is no different than the pharaohs who are coming out of the north and west to attack them.
I likewise pray for my new home America, may the people stop letting crisis capitalists and grievance entrepreneurs divide them based on identities and ideologies. I pray that we finally assess each other based on the content of our character instead of seeing each other through the prism of the very racial system that was a construct of racists to begin with. I pray that rich and poor alike realize that we are all in this together and that public and private serpents who are working overtime to dissolve us end up eating dust. I pray that we return to the innocence of our youth so that we can gain the kingdom of God that has always been within us.
As danger nears, we don’t need to turn to politicians and the rich and famous, we just need to turn to God or love as we choose it and we can redeem ourselves and renew hope for our children. #BrokenSparrow Click To TweetI pray that Jews, Christians and Muslims realize that we all pray to an Abrahamic God and that each faith is part and parcel of a wider picture that has yet to be revealed to us. I pray that all people of faith and those who don’t believe in You understand that none of us can own truth and that we are better off working together instead of tearing each other up over things that none of us can prove. I pray in the end that love wins out and that every heart that is laden with scars and each mind that is riddled with angst finds peace and for that peace to extend over all of us. I pray this in Your name, amen::
“Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.” ~ Matthew 5:7
